Unbearable Pain: My Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It was a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
This condition typically start with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists up to three hours.
About one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.
One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical texts propose unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.
The disorder were only officially classified by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.
In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.
Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.
National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.
But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a